Out With The Old, In With The New

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"Here's to the nights we've felt alive, here's to the tears you knew youd cry... Goodbye, tomorrow's gonna come too soon."

Wow, being a student nurse is such an amazing experience. And babies? Really, how can you not just be in the best of moods and fall in love. Birth is such an eye opening experience and a wonderful renewel of faith. =) I couldnt be more blessed and excited right now. I would have never have thought that I wouldnt even be nervous. However theres nothing but excitement right now, nothing. And to think, this is what Im doing with my life... Its starting. Everything is falling into place. I guess Im one of those people that love to look ahead and know that I really do have a lot going for me, and a bright future to look forward to. =) Im going to be doing something with my life that Im 100% devoted to and completely passionate about. Being able to touch hundreds of lives a day and making a difference, there is no job more rewarding. =) What an honor to become a nurse and have people trust you with their lives.

I know that plenty of family check this blog... So, let me also add how grateful I am to all those who stood by my moms side during her bowel ressection surgery. I know that everyone is going through a lot lately, but to know that so many people can put their own lives on hold to help out others is such a blessing - it brings a tear to my eyes. I really hate that I wasnt able to be there on the day of surgery (Since, I started clinicals.) But dont you worry, Ive tried to lecture her as much as possible about exercising and breathing exercises. =) Oh, we know she just loves me for that. Anyways, the surgery went amazing! And, of course, shes such a trooper and pushing herself right along! And should be out of the hospital in a few days! And, luckily, I am able to make a trip home this weekend to see my family & friends & that lucky guy of mine. :-) Haha.

P.S. Whoever you may be, please never take for granted all the great friends in your lives. I cant even begin to think of ALL the wonderful people that I know I can count on... And that know they can count on me as well. I know the past few weeks Ive stayed up super late a few times for a few friends in need... I just want you to know that I would do anything for you guys. And those late night calls make me feel blessed to have you in my life, theyre never, ever a burden! Needless to say, its sometimes hard to keep a busy schedule and keep up with everyone, but I promise Im trying. Above all else, I just want you all to know that Ive been beyond blessed to have you as a part of my life, and Im always, always here for you - and Im forever grateful!

I must also add that, looking back, I never thought Id be where I am today. Yeah, some people have "crapped" on me, others have used me, lied to me, misled me, mistreated me, and a few have even dropped me completely. But realistically, who doesnt go through that. Its really a part of life. No matter where youre at, keep your head up. And remind yourself to never live for anyone besides God. Because if you do, itll never work out. And when you lose that person, itll be like you lost part of your soul. The bottom line is that life never turns out the way we want it to, but youve gotta love AND live for YOURSELF (& keep that smile on your face), youve gotta be proud of the person that youve become and appreciate everyone from the past (even those worst enemies...) Because everyone has helped shape who you are today. Hahaha. Im not meaning to be sitting here preaching and lecturing. I just hate knowing that I have to feel like I wasted sooooo much of my time - when I wish I could have been told all this from the get go.

Then again, who am I to be giving advice. I swear I learn more about my self and life around me on a daily basis. And Ive finally begun to realize its rather refreshing. =)

Haha. I think I have probably rambled enough for the day. I hadnt been on here forever, but since Im away at school and dont see all the family on a constant basis anymore, I figured Id fill everyone in!

Love you all more than youll ever know. And remember, the smile on my face is there because of YOU! =) I couldnt be happier with all my friends and family and life, in general. Nursing is really getting better and better everyday.

[[but i must add, i ALREADY miss all those lil old ladies and lil old men at the nursing home back in Mattoon. but im coming to see you all this weekend....]]