&& You're Forever My Prince Charming...

There's something about you that I'll never understand. I think it's in the way that you care for every single soul in the world... Not just those people that need you and come to you, but even those that say so little. Somehow you know when you're needed. You're so different from any other. When people need, you drop your list of things to do, you drop your million errands to run, you drop your plans for the evening. I guess it's something about the way you make yourself available... Even when most people wouldn't dare to.

When I think about it more, I realize there's something in the way you treat me, like I have never known before. Your loyalty, your priorities, your values. The way your world can be falling apart in one day, but you stand strong, always there when I'm breaking. Your selflessness continues to amaze me every day I've known you... It's inspiring, truly humbling.

Then I sit here overjoyed - full of so much emotion that tears fall down my face... I realize I have no idea how to thank you & I don't think I will ever know. I do know that I'll spend every day of my life trying my best to show you just how thankful I am. :D

My appreciation, admiration, and respect for you grows every second... You're more than I have ever deserved & have the best heart of anyone that I know.

You see, I used to think for years that my expectations were too high... I actually sat down and made a list once - a list of all the qualities that I wanted & needed to have in a husband. Maybe that really is as pathetic as it sounds... Maybe. All I know is... The day I met you, I found the one person that had every characteristic on that list and so many more. After years of thinking I needed to give up and lower my expectations, I had found what I was waiting for, praying for - I found my mister perfect. [With you, everything makes perfect sense.]

I really couldn't ask for a single thing more & I can't thank God enough for knowing my heart better than I knew it myself. What a blessing!

... Joshua, I cannot wait to spend my forever with you. <3

99 days.

All About Priorities

Im sitting here searching neat song ideas for the reception, some DIY decor, bridesmaid bouquets, program ideas, readings, and even updating our registries... Oh, and of course watching The Bachelor: Women Tell All! :) Haha.

Did I mention... I have a ton to get done for classes a lot by TOMORROW, a huge test Wednesday, and a huge Senior Assignment presentation/poster by next Tuesday. Ahhhhh! Why does wedding planning have to be so exciting and enjoyable... Especially to this particular procrastinator that has SENIORITIS big time! May 7th needs to hurry it up.

I hope everyone had a fantastic weekend & has a great week ahead.

[By the way, it's day two of starting the gym again, and Im dying...] Pathetic!

The Ever-Growing List

So, I have a little bit before I have to leave for church this morning, and I got to thinking about how I needed to update everyone on all the wedding things! My mom came to St. Louis yesterday! We had such a great time together! :) We definitely didnt get as much done as we had hoped for [Im still desperately needing shoes & needing to decide on my veil and hairstyle]! However, we did finalize some things!

I was able to get some great deals on beautiful dresses for our Hawaii Honeymoon! :) A bunch of flowy, beach dresses! I cannot wait. Im putting it all away because I am not wanting to wear any of it until we get there! But I know I will be itching to. :) Haha. We also ordered our hand-painted [absolutely amazing, custom-made] aisle runner from idooriginals.com! It is going to be beautiful, but we wont get it for another 3 months [which will be here before we know it!] We also ordered our knife/serving set for the cake, the cake topper, a custom-embroided "beach bag for two" for our Honeymoon as newlyweds, and our engraved flutes! Yay! Everything is soooo beautiful. Im sure it will be even more breath-taking in person.

We also found the PERFECT match of red in some dress shirts to get for our ushers. We arent making them get suits and whatnot! [But we cant get the shirts just yet because we havent asked the people to be ushers... Haha. But I cant wait!]

My mom and I tried on tons and tons of dresses yesterday! She is in search of a particular Mother of the Bride dress! And I am trying to find my rehearsal dinner dress... Unfortunately, I know EXACTLY what I want it to look like in my head. So, I am not being very open minded. Haha. Figures - that will make it SO easy to find... Im sure. [But what I am wanting is fancy, but very simple!]

My mom has also spotted a tux for [our] my puppy Bentley. Of course he wont be in or at the church, but we are hoping Brett wont mind if we take him to a park or something for outside pictures. I am sure my beautiful Bentley will be running around like a maniac & loving on everyone, but we still want a few shots with our important little mister on our Big Day! :) [Even if the shots turn out a little crazy & downright hilarious!] Haha.

Josh and I have also tackled most of our songs! The slide show songs have been picked, and let me tell you... I know my parents will be in tears & Im sure some of my aunts too! Josh and I have also picked out our song to dance to! [Beautiful!] Along with some fun ideas for some neat dances throughout the night!

My aunt found some beautiful, elegant letters to put in front of our cake as well. Should be a nice, personalized touch!

My mom and I also stumbled on a few cute things for the "Bachelorette" party that I will be having... Just a few cute, obnxious buttons for the girls & a matted frame for all of them to sign. [I try to refrain from using that phrase "Bachelorette" because people make assumptions. But it will be some of my fun, favorite girls dressing up for dinner, having a sleepover in a hotel downtown, playing games, pigging out, and laughing all night like we all used to when we were 12!] I cant wait... More details to come.

Hmmm. Im sure I'm forgetting a lot that we've done in the last week, but I wanted to keep everyone posted. It's time for me to head for the day. Time for church, then lots of running errands and LOADS of homework. Please keep my sanity in your prayers! School & all these details dont leave me with much time in the day... And I know graduation & the Wedding are fastly approaching. Ahhhh!

Oh yes, and we got the proofs back of our custom-made invitations. We have a few more revisions to make and will be ordering them soon. Yay!

<3

Engagement Pictures

We received the disk of our engagement photos this week! How exciting! I suggest you check out Jarnagin Photography if you havent yet! http://jarnaginphotography.com/

Here are a very select few of our favorites! <3

Life is Such a Whirlwind Some Days

So much to do, so little time!

My to-do list for school is forever long. I swear... We had to read 100 pages before classes even started and had to be prepared for two quizzes. Lovely. Haha. Now, I've already gotten due dates for plenty of assignments due in the next few weeks. Not to mention, we have crazy amounts of reading. On top of it all, we need to be studying for our boards... Ahhh!

Oh did I mention, Im planning a wedding. Hahaha. May not be the smartest idea, but so far everything has been amazing. My study breaks usually consist of searching the internet for another idea! Actually wedding planning has been a great escape from the reality of the stresses of school. :D I think it's just the excitement in it all! <3

I must admit, I am ready for May to get here. I know everyone tells me not to wish the time away, and I honestly understand that. However, classes, studying, preparing, organizing, clinicals, assignments, readings... They are all nonstop. I am ready to be done with it all and have some time to JUST focus on the wedding! :) [Even if it is for only a month!] May will be a WONDERFUL month. I know it'll be chaotic [No worries, I am being realistic. I swear.] But how exciting to be packing, moving, and doing all the last minute things for the wedding. It will be one of the most memorable months of my lifetime. Im sure!

Well, I know I am needing to head to bed... So good night all. I hope everyone has been doing spectacular.

Oh, and I started packing tonight... I decided I wanted to take it all a step at a time. This way I can gradually move things to Tennessee! How exciting, but it is almost surreal!

<3 God bless.

Our Wedding Website

http://www.theknot.com/ourwedding/JoshuaMoore&JordanBreeze

Check it out! <3 June 5th is approaching fast! :)

[Please Remember]

Great song & wonderful lyrics! We all need to remember... Relationships change with people, friends, significant others... & sometimes death takes our loved ones from us until we're able to see them again down the road! No matter the case - never forget what all has brought you to where you are & all the people that have helped shaped you into the person you've become... Even all the amazing people that are no longer on this Earth... [Please Remember!]

Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And your left with yesterday
Left with the memories
I, I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time
I had you with me
Though we go our separate ways
I won't forget so don't forget
The memories we made

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
And we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me

Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say
And it's sad to walk away
With just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We'll leave behind a life and time
We'll never know again

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
And remember, please remember me

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
And we were wild and free
And remember, please remember me

And how we laugh and how we smile
And how this world was yours and mine
And how no dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ride so fast, we ride so free
And I had you and you had me

Another sad story, but this time it'll have a happy ending...

Sometimes it's so hard to not focus on the bigger picture in life. When everything seems to be crashing down only because of one horrible situation... Needless to say, I've let the anxiety & depression get the best of me... All from being harassed. I tried acting like it didnt get to me, but let me tell you, it's not easy to pretend life is just grand when a few select people wake up everyday and have every intention to do whatever it is they can to ruin your life and bring you down in every way possible.

I guess I just have sucked it up for so long and held it all in that it started affecting my personality, friendships, and relationships. No one has deserved a single bit of my stresses to be brought upon them, and if it has... I am beyond terribly sorry. My tears are done... Why give people like that what they want? And whats more, what does it say about you if you get joy in being so cruel and making others cry? Idk.

Needless to say, I've sucked it up for so long... And started to let it suck some of the life out of me. But God is soooo good! I've finally talked to the right people & found out all my options... So if the deleting and blocking isnt enough of a hint... Then, I guess I will finally have to do something about all this. I just hate how pathetic it will make me look having to take action. But enough is enough. And all the instructors said it best... this harassment has gone on for way too long, another five months could drive me crazy. I cant suck it up anymore... simply because I shouldnt have to. We're not in middle school anymore.

I guess Im just venting and apologizing for not doing anything sooner... When every single person has been subjected to it all. Having to see and hear it all first hand...

On another note, I havent seen Joshua in ages & it's about to drive me mad... Haha. Talking on the phone just isnt enough sometimes. But boy am I oh so thankful for all that's been given to me this year.

I hope everyone has been doing amazing! [Church is great, my friends are freaking fabulous, Josh's church & family amaze me more every day, my younger brother brings tears to my eyes for how intelligent and how wise he is beyond his years, my parents are so understanding and always looking out for my best interests, and Joshua treats me better than I ever knew was possible for a man! ;) Life is amazing - I pray it is for each & every one of you as well!!! And I pray, unlike me, you remain so so thankful for the good in your life & NEVER let the bad things or sad people get the best of you!!!] <3

Until next time, sweet dreams, best wishes, & Merry Christmas!

T.H.A.N.K.F.U.L

It's finally Thanksgiving week! [I say finally, but this year has literally flown by in the blink of an eye!] What an amazing time of year though - Christmas music, happy people, shopping for gifts, etc.

I just wanted to take a second to remind myself of everything Im beyond thankful for! [In no particular order!]

-My family that supports my every decision & has helped me through so much!
-My amazing fiance that treats me better than I ever knew possible.
-My puppy... He's always by my side. His unconditional love amazes me.
-My cousins! [more like my siblings]
-All my awesome aunts & uncles... They have such amazing hearts & so many talents.
-My friends that have stuck with me through it all!
-My bridesmaids. [I know it sounds lame, but they make my wedding planning even MORE enjoyable! So helpful & fun, they make me feel that much more important!]
-My parents that have always done everything they can to help me.
-My grandparents in Heaven! [They were all such amazing witnesses & displayed true love!]
-My grandpa [He's come so far!]
-The lessons I've learned in the past few months... [Well past three years.]
-Being able to see the reasons for many of the hardships I've endured in my past.
-My faith & my gracious God! [I've learned so much & finally proud of where I stand...]
-My health [I may be out of shape, but it's amazing anymore to just be healthy in this world!]
-Our home videos! [Im sitting here watching them with my brother - How awesome to have videos of us growing up and all our family and amazing memories of our grandparents!]
-Technology [I know that seems pathetic, but where would we be without our email and google!]
-Pictures... I will always have a camera attached to my hand.
-My education. [I know I knock it sometimes, but we know so much more than we give ourselves credit for - What a great future!]
-My internship this summer - I had so many awesome experiences! And so many firsts. [NG tubes like crazy, blood draws, IVs, catheters... We saw & did it all!]

The list could go on forever, but Im gonna help clean up around the house before Joshua gets here... I cant wait. How pathetic it sounds, but I've never been so excited to see someone in my life! It's been a miserable two weeks, but the worst is OVER! :)

I hope everyone has an amazing time of relaxation and lots of love & family!

<3

Happy [early] Thanksgiving!

A Little Bit of Everything Wrapped Into One*

It's my favorite time of year again, and this year I can actually see everything I am thankful for surrounding me. Im so grateful for the amazing people I have in my life & for the ones that I've loved and lost [It happens - certain people will always come & go, it's just important to remember there's a purpose for everything & everyone in your life!].

So, I haven't blogged in ages & felt like it would be nice to start up again. Im too busy to write, but have so much going through my head these days that it's always nice to have expression through words.

With everything that's been going on, I've been rather stressed. I would say that I've handled everything well, but I think it's more that I've tried to look like I've handled it all well... Unfortunately, I let some things hurt me even when they are said by people out of anger or are completely unmerited. Lately, Ive been wondering how many other people are going through the same sort of hardships... My heart has been broken for them all. Sadly, I've been so focused on myself and how I've been attacked and hurt - that it took me awhile to see the bigger picture. Ill live! And you will too! Don't let anyone bring you down, try to hurt you with your past, or make wrongful accusations about your present and future. Only YOU [and God] know your heart [and that's all that matters!]

Most importantly, this is the time of year to really be thankful [of course, we should be thankful everyday, but lets make use of the time we've been given!] Now Im trying to listen to my own advice here because I know how much it is easier said than done... But it's all about being thankful for everything! Not just the obvious fiance, friends, family, God, puppy, but also for the lessons we've learned in the past year. [For me, it's more like the past 3 years.] I've screwed up more than I'd like to admit, trusted the wrong people, befriended some of the wrong people, said the wrong things, did some wrong things, hurt a few people while trying to make changes, been selfish, and focused on everything I shouldn't have...

Needless to say, every single person in the world has regrets about their past, times that they haven't been proud... It's what you make of it. Im not a better person now... Im not perfect... And Ill still always screw up over things I shouldn't, but my whole is whole & Im right where I should be! It's about being proud and knowing your living for the One and only that matters! How awesome to think about...

Anyway, life's great!

The bottom line, I think people need to focus on their own lives and be happy for what they've been given! How can you judge other people when you don't know their heart, their past, or their present. One of my favorite quotes goes something like this: "Be nice to everyone you meet because they're fighting a battle you know nothing about!" How true... Even with our closest friends... There are so many things on every one's minds... Things we may not even know about.

Think about it!