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"Here's to the nights we've felt alive, here's to the tears you knew youd cry... Goodbye, tomorrow's gonna come too soon."
Wow, being a student nurse is such an amazing experience. And babies? Really, how can you not just be in the best of moods and fall in love. Birth is such an eye opening experience and a wonderful renewel of faith. =) I couldnt be more blessed and excited right now. I would have never have thought that I wouldnt even be nervous. However theres nothing but excitement right now, nothing. And to think, this is what Im doing with my life... Its starting. Everything is falling into place. I guess Im one of those people that love to look ahead and know that I really do have a lot going for me, and a bright future to look forward to. =) Im going to be doing something with my life that Im 100% devoted to and completely passionate about. Being able to touch hundreds of lives a day and making a difference, there is no job more rewarding. =) What an honor to become a nurse and have people trust you with their lives.
I know that plenty of family check this blog... So, let me also add how grateful I am to all those who stood by my moms side during her bowel ressection surgery. I know that everyone is going through a lot lately, but to know that so many people can put their own lives on hold to help out others is such a blessing - it brings a tear to my eyes. I really hate that I wasnt able to be there on the day of surgery (Since, I started clinicals.) But dont you worry, Ive tried to lecture her as much as possible about exercising and breathing exercises. =) Oh, we know she just loves me for that. Anyways, the surgery went amazing! And, of course, shes such a trooper and pushing herself right along! And should be out of the hospital in a few days! And, luckily, I am able to make a trip home this weekend to see my family & friends & that lucky guy of mine. :-) Haha.
P.S. Whoever you may be, please never take for granted all the great friends in your lives. I cant even begin to think of ALL the wonderful people that I know I can count on... And that know they can count on me as well. I know the past few weeks Ive stayed up super late a few times for a few friends in need... I just want you to know that I would do anything for you guys. And those late night calls make me feel blessed to have you in my life, theyre never, ever a burden! Needless to say, its sometimes hard to keep a busy schedule and keep up with everyone, but I promise Im trying. Above all else, I just want you all to know that Ive been beyond blessed to have you as a part of my life, and Im always, always here for you - and Im forever grateful!
I must also add that, looking back, I never thought Id be where I am today. Yeah, some people have "crapped" on me, others have used me, lied to me, misled me, mistreated me, and a few have even dropped me completely. But realistically, who doesnt go through that. Its really a part of life. No matter where youre at, keep your head up. And remind yourself to never live for anyone besides God. Because if you do, itll never work out. And when you lose that person, itll be like you lost part of your soul. The bottom line is that life never turns out the way we want it to, but youve gotta love AND live for YOURSELF (& keep that smile on your face), youve gotta be proud of the person that youve become and appreciate everyone from the past (even those worst enemies...) Because everyone has helped shape who you are today. Hahaha. Im not meaning to be sitting here preaching and lecturing. I just hate knowing that I have to feel like I wasted sooooo much of my time - when I wish I could have been told all this from the get go.
Then again, who am I to be giving advice. I swear I learn more about my self and life around me on a daily basis. And Ive finally begun to realize its rather refreshing. =)
Haha. I think I have probably rambled enough for the day. I hadnt been on here forever, but since Im away at school and dont see all the family on a constant basis anymore, I figured Id fill everyone in!
Love you all more than youll ever know. And remember, the smile on my face is there because of YOU! =) I couldnt be happier with all my friends and family and life, in general. Nursing is really getting better and better everyday.
[[but i must add, i ALREADY miss all those lil old ladies and lil old men at the nursing home back in Mattoon. but im coming to see you all this weekend....]]
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Here's To Life
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We all deserve to be appreciated.
You shouldn't have to beg for a backrub.
Tomorrow is never promised, nor is your next breath.
Depend on God in all you do.
Befriend strangers.
Give more than you receive.
Never settle. Unless you want to be unhappy.
Dont think the grass is greener on the other side.
Never throw away love that has been given to you.
Dont take anything or one for granted.
Enjoy the sun.
Thank God for the beauty around you.
When you feel God talking, listen.
Marriage is a lifelong thing.
Always give someone another chance.
Never let yourself second guess. Know its right.
Let people in.
Trust when you cant find the strength.
Pray.
Love... like you've never been hurt.
Smile even when you're not happy.
Work your hardest everyday.
Make a good name for yourself.
Stand up for whats right.
Give to those in need.
Be a witness of your morals and faith.
Dance through lifes' obstacles.
Never believe something is impossible.
Celebrate the little things.
Dont judge.
Hold onto your family.
Be thankful.
Most importantly, be appreciative of everything both big and small! Life is a gift. So make the best of it.
Ha. Dont know what all that was about, but people frustrate me anymore... Soooo. Take it in.
.Peace.out.girl.scout.
We all deserve to be appreciated.
You shouldn't have to beg for a backrub.
Tomorrow is never promised, nor is your next breath.
Depend on God in all you do.
Befriend strangers.
Give more than you receive.
Never settle. Unless you want to be unhappy.
Dont think the grass is greener on the other side.
Never throw away love that has been given to you.
Dont take anything or one for granted.
Enjoy the sun.
Thank God for the beauty around you.
When you feel God talking, listen.
Marriage is a lifelong thing.
Always give someone another chance.
Never let yourself second guess. Know its right.
Let people in.
Trust when you cant find the strength.
Pray.
Love... like you've never been hurt.
Smile even when you're not happy.
Work your hardest everyday.
Make a good name for yourself.
Stand up for whats right.
Give to those in need.
Be a witness of your morals and faith.
Dance through lifes' obstacles.
Never believe something is impossible.
Celebrate the little things.
Dont judge.
Hold onto your family.
Be thankful.
Most importantly, be appreciative of everything both big and small! Life is a gift. So make the best of it.
Ha. Dont know what all that was about, but people frustrate me anymore... Soooo. Take it in.
.Peace.out.girl.scout.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
What's A Heart To Do
Sick.
Misunderstood.
Alone.
Afraid.
But wondering why these feelings are so strong only sometimes. And other times I can put it all aside and realize that if he truly ever does get over me, then we werent met to be. You see I can tell myself that all day long. But what I really think is there has to be a reason for all this... Not just for us to suffer, for us to hurt, for me to handle situations all wrong. Not for me to just not be myself, and act crazy and scared and in love beyond words. Was it that for three and a half years, I just loved him more, just felt more, just trusted in our future more? Was it me that had no doubts of us being together forever? How dramatic am I being? I mean, this shouldnt matter right? God will bring me through, I know that.... But what I dont get is all the ups and downs. When things are great, then things are terrible, and whats worse is that I feel like its always my fault. Things get great, then I listen to some idiot, or worry, or assume and make something out of nothing.... then its late at night, I dont think before I open my mouth, and Im freaking out. I dont want things to be like this. Not anymore. I cant keep doing this to myself or him. I dont get it anymore. Things are great, they can and have the utmost potential to be that way and stay that way. You see, its not possible for someone to feel so strongly about someone else. For a couple to not be able to move from each other...after so much time...and still love each other more than the other can even fathom. Why do I have such faith? And do I even have a reason to anymore? Idk. Guess I dont care either. I can only be myself. Say what I feel, but depend on only myself and God for happiness. I just dont get why so long, why the other girls? And blocking me? Does no good. ((I really wish it did - I wish blocking someone would elminate them from your life, if only for a short time, just to elminate the worrying))... But Ill forever be in his life, so I guess some people just might have to get used to it. Im sorry, and wish it werent that way, but this girls love is going no where. Whats worse, I am not even trying to make it go away. Its just still not what God's putting on my heart... Idk. I just hope I can see it when he is...
"If youre really soulmates, its going to take far more than a few years to move on with your life... Pretending can only get you so far."
Misunderstood.
Alone.
Afraid.
But wondering why these feelings are so strong only sometimes. And other times I can put it all aside and realize that if he truly ever does get over me, then we werent met to be. You see I can tell myself that all day long. But what I really think is there has to be a reason for all this... Not just for us to suffer, for us to hurt, for me to handle situations all wrong. Not for me to just not be myself, and act crazy and scared and in love beyond words. Was it that for three and a half years, I just loved him more, just felt more, just trusted in our future more? Was it me that had no doubts of us being together forever? How dramatic am I being? I mean, this shouldnt matter right? God will bring me through, I know that.... But what I dont get is all the ups and downs. When things are great, then things are terrible, and whats worse is that I feel like its always my fault. Things get great, then I listen to some idiot, or worry, or assume and make something out of nothing.... then its late at night, I dont think before I open my mouth, and Im freaking out. I dont want things to be like this. Not anymore. I cant keep doing this to myself or him. I dont get it anymore. Things are great, they can and have the utmost potential to be that way and stay that way. You see, its not possible for someone to feel so strongly about someone else. For a couple to not be able to move from each other...after so much time...and still love each other more than the other can even fathom. Why do I have such faith? And do I even have a reason to anymore? Idk. Guess I dont care either. I can only be myself. Say what I feel, but depend on only myself and God for happiness. I just dont get why so long, why the other girls? And blocking me? Does no good. ((I really wish it did - I wish blocking someone would elminate them from your life, if only for a short time, just to elminate the worrying))... But Ill forever be in his life, so I guess some people just might have to get used to it. Im sorry, and wish it werent that way, but this girls love is going no where. Whats worse, I am not even trying to make it go away. Its just still not what God's putting on my heart... Idk. I just hope I can see it when he is...
"If youre really soulmates, its going to take far more than a few years to move on with your life... Pretending can only get you so far."
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
The Light Shining Through ..::..::..
Waking up at 5:15am, is not something I want to think about until clinicals start in the Fall. Hahaha, but it looks like no matter what I feel on the subject, my body will do whatever it wants. Unfortunately, its summertime, and at this hour...the only thing I can do is run/workout, but Im hoping to fall back asleep, so thats not a current option. Hmmmm, I hate the feeling in my stomach right now. I wont go into details...but...well, enough said I guess. My momma says she wont let this happen again, but Im afraid this again this year, she has no control.
So, I decided random nights out are sometimes bad news. Hmmm, the other night was odd. I did have a good time at first, but then well, somethings I wish I could avoid at all costs, and cant seem to.
P.S. Im eating better. And have been for a few weeks. Well see how long it lasts, but I feel like I owe that much to "helping my mom out now". Making it easier on her, makes me feel so much better. And the walks and running help of course. But I really need to check into another gym membership. Im thinking 24 hour gym this time maybe?
Did you know that reading is one of the greatest things possible. Ive realized that my mind is able to escape from every possible thing in this world and get all wrapped up in a life far from my own. I think reading is the one time that I dont spend my every second worrying about other people. Haha. Im engrossed in something new and exciting. Im reading about a book every few days now [[And more time for the bible]]. Reading might be my number one love about summertime.
And, Im part of a prayer support team now. Thats exciting news. Nothing more rejuvenating than being a part of something so much bigger than myself and helping others! Another great thing, Ive made some amazing friends lately. A few from the end of the school year, but some others actually from back home. And one that well, I dont really know, but her prayer and support already means the world to me.
God is AMAZING. In times of needs, he always conquers. Last night at work, a resident said some comforting things when I was about to break and fall into pieces. She had no clue what was going on, but Im thinking she was my angel last night. Gave me strength when God told her just what I needed to hear. Plus, Ive felt God tugging on me sometimes lately, and when I act on it asap, I feel like Ive touched some just when they needed it most. Its a weird feeling, but youve gotta just go with it, and LET GOD!
...Please remember to be kind to everyone you meet for theyre fighting a battle you know nothing about...
Keep my family in your prayers. Please & thank you.
[[oh and of course, my heart still hurts more everyday...]]
-------> LOVE PICS <-------
(awe - my bff & me. yeah hes my fav & great & amazing. Kinda like ...all that and a bag of chips...)
So, I decided random nights out are sometimes bad news. Hmmm, the other night was odd. I did have a good time at first, but then well, somethings I wish I could avoid at all costs, and cant seem to.
P.S. Im eating better. And have been for a few weeks. Well see how long it lasts, but I feel like I owe that much to "helping my mom out now". Making it easier on her, makes me feel so much better. And the walks and running help of course. But I really need to check into another gym membership. Im thinking 24 hour gym this time maybe?
Did you know that reading is one of the greatest things possible. Ive realized that my mind is able to escape from every possible thing in this world and get all wrapped up in a life far from my own. I think reading is the one time that I dont spend my every second worrying about other people. Haha. Im engrossed in something new and exciting. Im reading about a book every few days now [[And more time for the bible]]. Reading might be my number one love about summertime.
And, Im part of a prayer support team now. Thats exciting news. Nothing more rejuvenating than being a part of something so much bigger than myself and helping others! Another great thing, Ive made some amazing friends lately. A few from the end of the school year, but some others actually from back home. And one that well, I dont really know, but her prayer and support already means the world to me.
God is AMAZING. In times of needs, he always conquers. Last night at work, a resident said some comforting things when I was about to break and fall into pieces. She had no clue what was going on, but Im thinking she was my angel last night. Gave me strength when God told her just what I needed to hear. Plus, Ive felt God tugging on me sometimes lately, and when I act on it asap, I feel like Ive touched some just when they needed it most. Its a weird feeling, but youve gotta just go with it, and LET GOD!
...Please remember to be kind to everyone you meet for theyre fighting a battle you know nothing about...
Keep my family in your prayers. Please & thank you.
[[oh and of course, my heart still hurts more everyday...]]
-------> LOVE PICS <-------
(awe - my bff & me. yeah hes my fav & great & amazing. Kinda like ...all that and a bag of chips...)
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Sex and the City
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Not good to watch if:
youre feeling used.
ure a hopeless romantic.
ure wondering when its going to work out for you.
Just an idea. Ive heard it from various people. HAHA.
Btw, my family = awesomeness.
Summer = great.
Work = enough said.
Oh and Im writing a song - because I think its fun. Dunno where it came from & no one will ever hear it, but I think its interesting.
And ummm, Im pretty much stoked about working in OB starting FALLLLL! Bring on the babies and mommas! Yes yes yes. Finally taking care of people (NOT as a CNA) haha!
Not good to watch if:
youre feeling used.
ure a hopeless romantic.
ure wondering when its going to work out for you.
Just an idea. Ive heard it from various people. HAHA.
Btw, my family = awesomeness.
Summer = great.
Work = enough said.
Oh and Im writing a song - because I think its fun. Dunno where it came from & no one will ever hear it, but I think its interesting.
And ummm, Im pretty much stoked about working in OB starting FALLLLL! Bring on the babies and mommas! Yes yes yes. Finally taking care of people (NOT as a CNA) haha!
Saturday, May 17, 2008
I Am ----->
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needing more guidance than I ever thought possible. I really dont know what to do or say anymore, or even how to go about saying it....or getting my point across. Truth is...sometimes I feel like I really know what God is doing in my life, and other days Im wondering what I did to be in the position Im in. I know, I know...people think that sitting on the outside looking in...things are cut and dry, black and white. But in my life, its a mess of a whirlwind...a roller coaster that goes down more often than it goes up....Really youd think I was far below sea level, fighting my way back to the top, struggling for any bit of breathe that I could get. Most of the time I feel like I just need someone to reach out, grab me and pull me up. Make me have motivation, make me see that this isnt the life I was intended for. But I guess thats a whole nother test in itself - fighting for what I believe in, what I want, and what I know is meant for my life. Some days the motivation and strength are there without asking, without being forced, but other times, Im lost and struggling and wondering how everyone else makes it look so incredibly easy. There are things I need to change, need to work on...to become the person that I want to be and know Ill become. But thats like anyones life, right? Making improvements, changes, sacrifices. All I know is what my heart tells me all day long, before I go to sleep at night, and first thing when I wake up. Its love...maybe thats the most important thing in the universe. I mean, thats pretty much what I think anyways. But love is hard, love is a struggle, love takes work. The thing is...youve gotta find that person that is worth fighting for, that the good is worth the bad, the one...the only one. Well, I suppose Im trying to say that "Im in"...count me in. Im a girl that cant help but know what I want and how I feel. Things were amazing for so long for a reason. I was blessed beyond all recognition! And well, anything important enough...is always worth fighting for. And when two people fight for each other....against all odds...whats supposed to happen, will happen. As long as things have been let go, given over to God, and all hurt has been released. A fresh start for something a long time coming... <3 Its your love, it just does something to me...
needing more guidance than I ever thought possible. I really dont know what to do or say anymore, or even how to go about saying it....or getting my point across. Truth is...sometimes I feel like I really know what God is doing in my life, and other days Im wondering what I did to be in the position Im in. I know, I know...people think that sitting on the outside looking in...things are cut and dry, black and white. But in my life, its a mess of a whirlwind...a roller coaster that goes down more often than it goes up....Really youd think I was far below sea level, fighting my way back to the top, struggling for any bit of breathe that I could get. Most of the time I feel like I just need someone to reach out, grab me and pull me up. Make me have motivation, make me see that this isnt the life I was intended for. But I guess thats a whole nother test in itself - fighting for what I believe in, what I want, and what I know is meant for my life. Some days the motivation and strength are there without asking, without being forced, but other times, Im lost and struggling and wondering how everyone else makes it look so incredibly easy. There are things I need to change, need to work on...to become the person that I want to be and know Ill become. But thats like anyones life, right? Making improvements, changes, sacrifices. All I know is what my heart tells me all day long, before I go to sleep at night, and first thing when I wake up. Its love...maybe thats the most important thing in the universe. I mean, thats pretty much what I think anyways. But love is hard, love is a struggle, love takes work. The thing is...youve gotta find that person that is worth fighting for, that the good is worth the bad, the one...the only one. Well, I suppose Im trying to say that "Im in"...count me in. Im a girl that cant help but know what I want and how I feel. Things were amazing for so long for a reason. I was blessed beyond all recognition! And well, anything important enough...is always worth fighting for. And when two people fight for each other....against all odds...whats supposed to happen, will happen. As long as things have been let go, given over to God, and all hurt has been released. A fresh start for something a long time coming... <3 Its your love, it just does something to me...
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Home For Summer
Yay. Im home & this summer is my fresh start! I know that sounds so cliche, but I get some space and some freedom away from things dragging me down. Ya know that saying "let go of what kills you and hold onto what keeps you breathing.." Well, its something like that. And I guess thats how summer is going to be. :-) Horrray. I get to see some of my fav people ever! But then again, Im leaving too many back in Eville. Ugh. So, about every other weekend, Ill be there for sure. YES! And P.S. I have some of the cutest baby cousins in this world. AdOrAbLe! But, yesterday, was the last day in my grandparents house & it was impossible & final & everything I didnt want to deal with, but handled just fine i suppose. Anyway, its over & I really dont want to see movers in there on Tuesday. No thanks. But, this week is full of new things & appointments & excitements. Hahaha. (Oh, and maybe a visit from a new friend... )
So, lets make it great...
So, lets make it great...
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Past, Present, Future
[[Youll get yours and I firmly believe it. Thanks though. Lol. It was a good laugh while it lasted.]]
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Lately, Ive done a whole lot of thinking about my grandparents and just how much I miss them. I dunno if any of you have heard the song "He's Walking Her Home," but its pretty much written about the two of them. I know, I know I talk about them an awful lot. But if you had ever met them, you would completely understand. I have no clue what they are doing up in Heaven. But all I know is that I need to thank God daily for putting such wonderful people in my life. What an inspiration to every life they've ever touched! Always uplifting and wonderful witnesses. Its such a blessing to have no doubts that they're up in heaven for eternity, waiting to see the rest of their family. Some days I wish seeing them would come sooner rather than later because my grandparents meant more to me than anything on this Earth. They were a match literally made in Heaven. And without a doubt, could not and would not survive without the other. Days like today when some people feel like starting drama...for attention, more than likely, I think of the bigger picture. I was beyond blessed out of this world having amazing grandparents & a wonderful boyfriend/bestfriend that was able to be a part of their lives as well. So, why do some people feel the need to create this, make things worse than they are. Just step back and have complete faith that God knows what hes doing. Im going to be honest, I have no clue what Im doing anymore besides trying my hardest to get by and get rid of this grudge on my shoulder. Other than that, everything will work out the way its supposed to. Me worrying about it does nothing. However, I dont deal with getting slapped in the face, or laughed at. So, for your own sake. Dont do it. :-)
---My grandpa would be lecturing me right now, complimenting me, and reminding me of my strengths and weaknesses. I love you & always will...these past four months havent been the same without you around. ---
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Lately, Ive done a whole lot of thinking about my grandparents and just how much I miss them. I dunno if any of you have heard the song "He's Walking Her Home," but its pretty much written about the two of them. I know, I know I talk about them an awful lot. But if you had ever met them, you would completely understand. I have no clue what they are doing up in Heaven. But all I know is that I need to thank God daily for putting such wonderful people in my life. What an inspiration to every life they've ever touched! Always uplifting and wonderful witnesses. Its such a blessing to have no doubts that they're up in heaven for eternity, waiting to see the rest of their family. Some days I wish seeing them would come sooner rather than later because my grandparents meant more to me than anything on this Earth. They were a match literally made in Heaven. And without a doubt, could not and would not survive without the other. Days like today when some people feel like starting drama...for attention, more than likely, I think of the bigger picture. I was beyond blessed out of this world having amazing grandparents & a wonderful boyfriend/bestfriend that was able to be a part of their lives as well. So, why do some people feel the need to create this, make things worse than they are. Just step back and have complete faith that God knows what hes doing. Im going to be honest, I have no clue what Im doing anymore besides trying my hardest to get by and get rid of this grudge on my shoulder. Other than that, everything will work out the way its supposed to. Me worrying about it does nothing. However, I dont deal with getting slapped in the face, or laughed at. So, for your own sake. Dont do it. :-)
---My grandpa would be lecturing me right now, complimenting me, and reminding me of my strengths and weaknesses. I love you & always will...these past four months havent been the same without you around. ---
This Would Be Happening
Right now he's probably slow dancing with a bleach blond tramp,and she's probably getting frisky...right now, he's probably buying her some fruity little drink cause she can't shoot whiskey...Right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick, showing her how to shoot a combo...And he don't know...That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,carved my name into his leather seats...I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,slashed a hole in all 4 tires...Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.Right now, she's probably up singing somewhite-trash version of Shania karaoke..Right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk"and he's a thinking that he's gonna get lucky,Right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo...And he don't know...That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,carved my name into his leather seats,I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,slashed a hole in all 4 tires...Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.I might've saved a little trouble for the next girl,Cause the next time that he cheats...Oh, you know it won't be on me!No...not on me'Cause I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,carved my name into his leather seats...I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
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...hm. you think some people would realize, or maybe just feel STUPID. bahahaha. of course not. yes, please continue to make my life a living disaster. i dont mind that you lack any human decency in this world. thanks for that and for making my self esteem a -4. hahaha. greatness, i tell ya. wanna know the only reason i would ever be up at 4am ----reliving crap i shouldnt have went through in the first place. im sorry only says so much...PrOvE iT & say SEEYA! or else IM DONE...really, its all about respect. so, how much respect am i worth these days................................
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...hm. you think some people would realize, or maybe just feel STUPID. bahahaha. of course not. yes, please continue to make my life a living disaster. i dont mind that you lack any human decency in this world. thanks for that and for making my self esteem a -4. hahaha. greatness, i tell ya. wanna know the only reason i would ever be up at 4am ----reliving crap i shouldnt have went through in the first place. im sorry only says so much...PrOvE iT & say SEEYA! or else IM DONE...really, its all about respect. so, how much respect am i worth these days................................
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
And It's Raining On Sunday
I'm laying here, wondering why in the world I'm up this early on a Tuesday. Considering, it's the one day that I don't have class til noon. My opinion, usually when I sleep with my window open, something outside wakes me. Sadly enough, I'm a light sleeper. So light that I've been having to turn my phone on silent anymore, just to get some sleep. But I missed a bunch of calls last night from my fella, no good at all.
So, I'm pretty much rambling, but when am I not these days. Over Christmas, I watched a Joel sermon, and I think it was made for me. Well, recently, I watched it again. And let me just say, no one is going to steal my happiness. No one is good enough to take away a good day. Not a single soul should allow that to happen. It is actually considered a sin, which makes perfect sense. For example, what if someone has been rude to me, and then Im upset. Well, I act differently towards others. I wouldnt be as nice, outgoing, or even smile as much. But what if God had intended on me brightening someones day that really needed it. In turn, that person I was supposed to touch is still in a down mood, you see it can eventually affect hundreds of people. I think it's something we all need to work on. Yet another thing that I just dont understand, RUDE PEOPLE. Why are people even curtius anymore. Holding doors? Saying thank you? Smiling? Asking how someone is doing? Shaking hands? Being polite? I dont understand. Some days I will wait, and hold the door open for someone, and they wont say a word. Fortunately, I dont do that to get anything in return; however, I thought that was just common courtesy. How sad. Lets all start working on that. Goodness.
Another thing, why do so many people just not get it sometimes. I mean, I know I laugh at them for it, and I have to apologize to God daily for doing just that. But come on people. Hypothetically, how can you be obsessed with someone that tells you "sorry you were a mistake" or even "Im still in love with my exgirlfriend, and really want things to work with her." Whats sad, is I have seen this lately, not only for myself, but a few friends. I just dont get it. So, I wanna say, you girls all look pathetic and desperate, but youre not (or maybe). So, please just listen and stop, stop, stop making yourself look like a fool. He's not interested. Ok? Thanks. :-) As for girls like me, well we just have to listen to him, and know he has no interest. Especially when they say "she doesnt mean anything to me, nothing more than a friend. You're my everything." All I can say to that is YES PLEASE. Some days it's harder than others to blow off things, but ya know. Today is the start of something new, the start of me saying...best of luck to you girls, I dont care about what ya'll think anymore. Just get a clue. I was the one blessed for four years...and there's plenty more to come.
Oh and one of my lab assistants is pregnant. And all I can say is, what a miracle! I would have to say one of the greatest days of my life was helping deliver a baby. Well, I didnt do an awful lot, but I was able to watch and be right there throughout the entire delivery, holding her leg while she pushed like no other. Thus far, it's one of God's greatest miracles that I have ever witnessed, right behind my grandparent's love! [i will always miss them and think of them daily]...
"Its not over tonight, just give me one more chance to make it right...I wont go home without you...the weight of things remain unspoken..." - "Every night you cry yourself to sleep thinking why does this happen to me. Why does every moment have to be so hard..."
AOL: JLeighBreeze18
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So, I'm pretty much rambling, but when am I not these days. Over Christmas, I watched a Joel sermon, and I think it was made for me. Well, recently, I watched it again. And let me just say, no one is going to steal my happiness. No one is good enough to take away a good day. Not a single soul should allow that to happen. It is actually considered a sin, which makes perfect sense. For example, what if someone has been rude to me, and then Im upset. Well, I act differently towards others. I wouldnt be as nice, outgoing, or even smile as much. But what if God had intended on me brightening someones day that really needed it. In turn, that person I was supposed to touch is still in a down mood, you see it can eventually affect hundreds of people. I think it's something we all need to work on. Yet another thing that I just dont understand, RUDE PEOPLE. Why are people even curtius anymore. Holding doors? Saying thank you? Smiling? Asking how someone is doing? Shaking hands? Being polite? I dont understand. Some days I will wait, and hold the door open for someone, and they wont say a word. Fortunately, I dont do that to get anything in return; however, I thought that was just common courtesy. How sad. Lets all start working on that. Goodness.
Another thing, why do so many people just not get it sometimes. I mean, I know I laugh at them for it, and I have to apologize to God daily for doing just that. But come on people. Hypothetically, how can you be obsessed with someone that tells you "sorry you were a mistake" or even "Im still in love with my exgirlfriend, and really want things to work with her." Whats sad, is I have seen this lately, not only for myself, but a few friends. I just dont get it. So, I wanna say, you girls all look pathetic and desperate, but youre not (or maybe). So, please just listen and stop, stop, stop making yourself look like a fool. He's not interested. Ok? Thanks. :-) As for girls like me, well we just have to listen to him, and know he has no interest. Especially when they say "she doesnt mean anything to me, nothing more than a friend. You're my everything." All I can say to that is YES PLEASE. Some days it's harder than others to blow off things, but ya know. Today is the start of something new, the start of me saying...best of luck to you girls, I dont care about what ya'll think anymore. Just get a clue. I was the one blessed for four years...and there's plenty more to come.
Oh and one of my lab assistants is pregnant. And all I can say is, what a miracle! I would have to say one of the greatest days of my life was helping deliver a baby. Well, I didnt do an awful lot, but I was able to watch and be right there throughout the entire delivery, holding her leg while she pushed like no other. Thus far, it's one of God's greatest miracles that I have ever witnessed, right behind my grandparent's love! [i will always miss them and think of them daily]...
"Its not over tonight, just give me one more chance to make it right...I wont go home without you...the weight of things remain unspoken..." - "Every night you cry yourself to sleep thinking why does this happen to me. Why does every moment have to be so hard..."
AOL: JLeighBreeze18
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